Lyrics
NEW SONGS - Extended Demo (2002) -Changing Conditions (2001) - Unrecorded Songs
NEW SONGS
last day - alive and kicking- last day
Hello my love, my family and friends,
things seem better when you comprehend
that the hardest part has reached its end.
And it's my last day. It's my last day in...
Help me give out all my things -
my office keys for guitar strings.
I'm so excited what tomorrow brings,
like when I couldn't sleep on Christmas Eve.
I spent my life in jail - I'm about to leave
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and I'm high on the moment -
I'm high on life.
I’ll be waking up early
if I sleep tonight.
From here out,
I’m spending every sunny day outside.
It's my last day in...
Hello to those afraid of heights;
when you're higher up, just hold on tight -
you'll get a second wind when the end's in sight.
And it's my last day. It's my last day in...
Helmets might have saved my head.
Falling hurts and yes, I've bled.
But the upward slope is about to end and it'll be worthwhile when I reach the peak.
It's getting so close I can barely speak
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and I can feel it in my stomach.
It's running through my veins,
like I’ve been dying of thirst for 20 years
and I feel it start to rain.
Yeah, I feel it start to pour.
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Held my dreams inside my heart.
Choosing one was the hardest part,
but I made that choice and it's time to start.- alive and kicking
I've made honest mistakes
and I've found a few answers and aches.
I've made it this far -
When I don't have a compass I just follow the stars,
but there are cloudy days
I'll get lost again and that's okay
'cause I'm human like you.
But I always come back and I always pull through.
PRECHORUS
and if I've done everything right now
to right my wrongs and drop what’s slowed me down -
It shouldn't matter how I got here
CHORUS (partial)
as long as I’ve
arrived alive and kicking
as long as I’ve
arrived alive
and I tried my best
to get it right this time.
Even if I missed my chance,
I can't change the past, but I'll still advance
if I live and I learn.
I don't play with matches after getting burned
and I've felt a few flames,
but the scars just remind me what I overcame.
and I won't hide one.
I only look back to see how far I've come.
PRECHORUS
CHORUS (full)
as long as I’ve
arrived alive and kicking.
as long as I’ve
paid my dues - I'm out of debt,
I've got no restraints & no regrets.
and even if I could
I wouldn't want to change a thing.
I tried my best to get it right.
PRECHORUS
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I tried my best. I tried my best.
I wouldn’t want to change a thing.
I tried my best. I tried my best.
I wouldn’t want to change a thing.
I tried my best to get it right this time.
Extended Demo (2002)
feed - the new agilly - speedy -black-eyed susan - paper dragons - my ode to killers -
i fly - four
- feed
Every time I wait
Wait for you
to set the record straight
where are you?
And I don't have what it takes
to come to you
I am overwhelmed...
The sugar-coated shit
is what we've fed out to you.
CHORUS:
and every time I wait
wait for you
to set the record straight
where are you?
I don't have the strength
to come to you
I am overwhelmed by you
feed it to me straight
i can take it
Crawl around inside my head
what they said was free
until they came again
and all I thought was
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Let it go!
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It's feeding on my insides
one thing feeds another
feeding on my insides
one thing feeds another
let it go...
let it go...- the new agilly
Angel in my midst
meet your eyes with mine
and I will show you that a man can love for you
angel in my midst
hear my words and catch a glimpse
of the world that I'd make for you and me
when I would sell my soul for you
and I would give my life for you
and I have waited my whole damn life for you
I'm just waiting for you
so radiant too
And all these things you say to make me smile
and all the things you do to make me laugh
and everytime I wake up in denial
you make me feel
that I should sell my soul for you
and I should give my life for you
and I have waited my whole damn life
for you and me
for you and me
for you- speedy
Hey... sombraro
Hey... bandito
There's a place I go
Called Mexico (repeat)
Hey... Burrito
Hey... Un Taco
with some salsa!
There's a place I go
Called Mexico
There's a place I go
NOT Idaho!
Hey... Taquila
Hey eh eh a eh... Ariba!
Hey! Hey! Hey! etc...
There's a place I go
Called Mexico
There's a place I goooooooooooooo...
Called Mexico!- black-eyed susan
black eyes become
all you ever need from him
black eyes destroy
all the pretty things that you see
CHORUS:
it's time to leave him now
will you show me how to
it's time to leave him
won't you leave forever
maybe once was fine
many times he crossed the line
does he beat you?
the sweet you?
and all of these things she saw
amounted to every ounce of pain
and every feeling that was cuddled
from her heart so very vain
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Now!
Her hands hide her face
her smile distracts from pain
don't speak
your black eyes scream out loud- paper dragons
You hear that sound?
its the circus in the distance
for every reason,
I think you'd understand
maybe I should run away again
after all I'm just a man
I could be your lion tamer
I could be one of your clowns
I could introduce the others
I could drive you to your towns
CHORUS: But here we are at the beginning
pushed away just like before
chased around by paper dragons
it may leave less, but I want more
I haven't reached my full potential
I've only made a couple dollars
I haven't changed the world for the better
I haven't seen the eyes of god (who knows if I ever could)
CHORUS
More, more, more, more!
and what I said doesn't mean you have to
but here we are just like you're afraid
to see that everyone around this place
sends the message from their painted face
that their happy...
it scares me too - it doesn't mean they're really
so take me
take me
cause I want more, more, more, more- my ode to killers
it rained so
very hard that night
it seemed to never end
I don't want my children
to be afraid to go to school
I don't care if they were mean to you at all
do you think you're fucking cool?
CHORUS: you can rot in hell
but it's not my place to say
I guess that I'll have to forgive you
but can they?
they're not my children!
there's no excuse for taking a life away
you have abused most sacred of all the ways
how could you even let it cross your mind?
I'm sure that
you never thought it through
you only thought of you
and how about those lives
you obviously despised?
you think they'll judge for you?
you say they laughed at you
you say they drove you through
those evil things you did.
but you're the one who's mean
and grossly act obscene.
you think you'll ever be free again?
just let me say
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Not tomorrow or any other day soon (repeat)
you say they laughed at you
you say they drove you through
those evil things you did.
but you're the one who's mean
and grossly act obscene.
you think you'll ever be free again?
it rained so
very hard that night
it seemed to never end
not tomorrow or any other day soon (repeat)
NOT TOMORROW! (repeat)- i fly
I'll get the words from Ben...
- four
I had a burning feeling far beyond me
it seemed to never leave
and all of these tiny thoughts
so pure and unknown
led me to find why I returned
and all that I see
are ashes left for me
it feels so unreal
the tears just hold on dry
stunned and away
I wonder how...
was there ever anything
I did to feel this way
it seemed that nothing was
released until I screamed out into...
heaven
'cause no one cries in heaven
it seems my love is gone
oh no
please god
oh no
and all of these tiny thoughts
so pure and unknown
led me to find why I returned
all that I see
are ashes left for me
it feels so unreal
the tears just hold on dry
stunned and away
I wonder how I'll...
was there ever anything
I did to feel this way
it seemed that nothing was
released until I screamed out into...
heaven
'cause no one cries in heaven
they're not alone in heaven
and nothing's lost in heaven
it seems my love is gone
oh god
'cause no one cries in
they're not alone in
and nothing's lost in
they're never really gone
Changing Conditions (2001)
all the way - tangle - 1684 -a hard place - white flag -
personal hero - ball of mud -
a.g.i.l.l.y. - wake up - on top of the world - corner of my eye
- all the way
Outcast from society
unreal sobriety of thought
freak they call outside to him
inside the walls so thin to him
CHORUS: So is his mind estranged?
I know the times have changed.
I think we've found a way
to take the pain away.
It's surprising how cold
the children can be
lack of sympathy.
Glass eyes this boy maintains
reaction to love not shown to him.
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all the way!- tangle
I want to see if you were made for me.
I can't describe my curiosity
You could show me your everything.
Can't wait to see if you were made for me.
CHORUS: I haven't slipped up baby
Things were meant to happen now for us.
I don't deserve you baby
Just want to see if you were made for me.
Tangled up, I medicate for you.
Mumbled thoughts I await for you.
I have nothing that I can't share
Opened up, I medicate for you.
CHORUS
If you were made for me.
All along I've set my sights for you.
It always seemed like you were open too.
I am blamed for how I feel.
Just wanted to see if I was made for you.
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if you were made for me (repeat)- 1684
we can play
we can love our job
we can feel
our lives are made
we release
we exploit our love
we can feel
our lives are made- a hard place
It's a hard place to be
It's nice to know what you believe
She's here, so far away
And everyday you wait it out, it's just delayed
Someone out there
cares about us all.
And all the times you
call for help she's there for you.
CHORUS: Someone has the eyes they see from you.
Someone is that what you've become.
Someone is a light upon their own.
Someone knows all the things you've done.
Someone is, someone is of you.
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It's a hard place to be
Worth every moment to me- white flag
My heart is sore from all this fighting.
My rope is at it's end.
My father always told me not to give up.
But a line must be drawn - something should be done.
CHORUS: And I know as soon as it has flown
the angels rest a little easier.
I know as soon as it has flown
the people laugh a little easier.
As soon as it has flown,
the damage is done.
The damage is done.
With all this fighting it's easy to forget
the purpose behind this all is to make amends.
But how can a man be left to fight a war
he knows is over?
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I know!- personal hero
Latent like his pain and fear -
slipping through beyond.
Sedimentary ideas have lost
sifting carefully.
PRE-CHORUS: Then we realize his love for us.
Dedicated to happiness.
Sure his ideas were false
but so beautiful to me.
so beautiful.
He exists in the lives we live.
His tragedy gave birth.
Planted in the fields he sowed.
We miss, we thank, we love.
PRE-CHORUS
CHORUS: Indifference has passed -
a clue into your world.
You set your fields on fire
for the rest of us.
Your life you gave -
donation of purity.
You set your fields on fire
He's our personal hero!
CHORUS- ball of mud
Started from a stew of life?
It's hard for me to believe.
I'd like to think that something more divine
was the cause of all this shit.
It's a ball of mud
Hitched a ride with a shooting star?
It's hard for me to conceive.
I'd like to think that something more divine
was the god of all this shit.
It's a ball of mud! (repeat)
IT'S A BALL OF SHIT! (repeat)
sometimes
It's our ball of shit.- a.g.i.l.l.y.
Angel in my midst
meet your eyes with mine
and I will show you
that a man can love
CHORUS: When I sell my soul for you,
and I give my life for you.
And I have waited my whole damn life
to meet a girl like you.
Angel in my midst
hear my words and catch a glimpse
of the world that I'd make you.
CHORUS
Angel in my midst
bring your rays among us.
Oh that feeling is a feeling I need.
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A girl I love like you!- wake up
Will you look at yourself in the future
remembering dreams unfound.
Wouldn't you rather be telling your stories
to children who's life's confound.
CHORUS: Dream your future
Follow your dreams.
Let imagination
set you free.
Millions of people are stuck in their boredom
Leaving their dreams behind.
Follow enlightenment, follow your feelings
leave all your baggage behind.
CHORUS
Wake up, wake up, follow your dreams! (repeat)- on top of the world
I tie my hair back so you'll recognize me.
I know you're holding on to say goodbye.
You asked us to celebrate your life and we will.
I know you're strong, holding on, and don't you shed a tear for me.
PRE-CHORUS: (And) I still remember your laughter
and all the things you would say
and from here ever after
it'll be okay.
We made it on time, and now you should leave.
It's time for a new beginning although it feels like the end
for me for you for all.
I know your heart is in the right place.
PRE-CHORUS
CHORUS: Where shall you lie?
And she said "on top of the world"
Where shall you lie?
And she said "on top of the world"
And I still remember your laughter
and all the things you would say
and from here ever after
it'll be okay.
CHORUS- corner of my eye
Out of the corner of my eye.
I notice hard times.
And at my weakest point,
the hardest stress,
I succumb and I do nothing.
NOTHING!
CHORUS: (Well) I know to pull myself out of bed
I need to change my mind
And somehow I will see that what I have is great.
Throughout all the times that I thought - thought that I was finishing
I see that all I have to do is see that I am (here / you).
I know!
I feel
out of the CORNER OF MY EYE!
I'm afraid, I don't want to come back down.
Go away, I don't want your sympathy!
I'm afraid, I don't want to come back down.
Go away, GO AWAY!
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I'm afraid, I don't want to come back down.
Go away, I don't want your sympathy!
I'm afraid, I don't want to come back down.
Go away, GO AWAY!
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